Friday, October 28, 2005
Like in a dream we once had
walking along the sandy beach
tracing footsteps on the sand
as we strolled down the lonely night
Farther down the sandy trail
its only a dream that i hold still
as the wind soothes my soul
the waves washes the path whole
Looking back over my shoulders
imagining the path that we once shared
I started tracing back
not wanting to lose the memories that was once there
As i start anew
Looking back only once
with one longing glance
I will never forget
the path that we went through
onto a new path
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Wishing...; 10/28/2005 01:52:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
How cool, i'm about to head for ECP for cohesion day with my platoon mates. They're going to play WATER spots when there's a FREAKING huge patch of abrasion on my right calf. And it hasn't healed completely yet, pus and all still oozing out after every shower. Part of it still looks quite raw actually.
Great. I'm going to stone and zhuo bo IN camp, and even OUTSIDE camp. Fabulous.
Besides the fact that i'm SUPER bored, i'm not complaining :D
Co-(h)er-cion
Wishing...; 10/26/2005 12:19:00 PM
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
I've been visiting the library a lot nowadays. I've been wanting to find helpful guides to learning japanese but they're always on loan!! Acutally, i went there SPECIFICALLY just to look for them but i always return empty handed.
Anyways, i borrowed a book titled, The Procrastinaro's Handbook : Masting the art of doing it now. Its quite an interesting read and it details many interesting excuses and mind games people play to put off their work and also methods to start afresh. I must admit that i'm a victim of such behaviour too.
There're a few quotes inside which particularly interests me :
The best things in life are usually not things
Time wasted is existence; Time used is life.
There must be more to life than having everything.
And yes, i do believe in fate. But i also believe that one can change his destiny.
Anyway, before i sign off, here's another song which i got to like recently. Presenting to you,
San Sebastian from Sonata Artica
I could see my life, short film passing my eyes
I tried to look away from her, as always I just tried
Sweetness in her eyes, gone thru one million miles
How could I turn my back on her, the sweetest thing alive
I was eager, day time dreamer, waiting time when I'd come alive
Sun of San Sebastian eighteen years young today
She's all I ever dreamed, but now my skies are turning gray
It was good I got to know her well, because it made me see
That the sun of San Sebastian is just too hot for me
Look what I have done to my San Sebastian
I wasted all my childhood dreams by staring at the sun
Back in time with a dream of mine
I try to find my way back to life
Burning fever, night time screamer, waiting time when I'd come alive
Sun of San Sebastian oh why I cannot stay
She's all I ever dreamed, but now my skies are turning gray
It was good I got to know her well, because it made me see
That the sun of San Sebastian Is just too hot for me
Every single day, for the rest of my way
I live without my love, my God, I have to stay in shade
When I'm old and gray, I remember that day
When she came, that perfect dame and she blew me away
I was eager, day time dreamer, waiting time when I'd come alive
Oo-oo...
Was it good I got to know her well although it made me see
That the sun of San Sebastian is way too hot for me?
Oo-oo..
Now I live my life in shades and I am married to the moon
And the sun of San Sebastian is warming someone new
Library woes
Wishing...; 10/23/2005 08:19:00 PM
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Hrm...interesting..
What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. |
Sleeping postition
Wishing...; 10/23/2005 07:35:00 PM
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Saturday, October 22, 2005
KOH must really hate us. A lot! To think he made us suffer during our very own grad night, one of our very last happy moments with our schoolmates and teachers, by having it in the freaking SCHOOL FIELD. A field which, should it rain, would flood and ruin it all
And this year's cohort gets to enjoy it in an air-conditioned ballroom in suntec city. *PROTESTS*
Not that its a very grand place, but still!!!
Nothing much had changed since our batch graduated from jj. The same old canteen stalls and vendors, a couple of new teachers, construction of a new building to replace the container classrooms, upgrading of the school field, a more relaxed dress code in school, all minor upgrades.
And i was actually mistaken for a student. VP came and asked why are we not in proper school attire. Haha~
Lets just hope that the mentality changes. =/
JJ
Wishing...; 10/22/2005 02:59:00 AM
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Friday, October 21, 2005
How far down am i gonna go till i go up? Stop it already damnit.
Down
Wishing...; 10/21/2005 12:04:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Sometimes people say that others are biased when others say something like, they're from ite, or from neighbourhood school, or the like. But no matter HOW MUCH you want to side with them, you cannot deny the fact that they have a very different mentality from the rest, from me. The difference is there, was there, and will forever be there. Nothing can change that fact. I've experienced it first hand myself.
Of course, there are nice ppl there and i thank whoever's up there for that. Its just that there are those outstanding few who are ever so shallow and full of themselves. Or should i say that the other way round?
Just a bit about myself if you don't already know, i don't like being looked down upon, and i never look down on anyone. I maybe joke with people, about people, but i never really look down on anyone. And i despise people who do that, especially those who are not that much better themselves. Heh.
I treat people the way they treat me.
Difference
Wishing...; 10/18/2005 08:15:00 PM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
Noooo, i'm going to book in now, after such a long time of staying out and booking in on monday morning... Gone are the good ol days. $#@!%%
Sianzation
Wishing...; 10/16/2005 09:48:00 PM
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I just had to do it. Ever got that feeling? My brain is sending me truck loads of those signals nowadays. The urge appears out of the sudden, from seemingly nowhere without an inkling where i got the notion from. I guess thats what happens if you're bored out of yourself.
Just a senseless post which i felt the urge to type out =/
May the cold winds wash all my troubles away.
Sudden Urges
Wishing...; 10/16/2005 01:21:00 AM
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
And i was thrown into my new unit. It wasn't really an interesting and rewarding experience, pretty much anticipated what i would see but nonetheless, certain characters still...appalled me.
I'm glad to say that my storemen were exceptionally nice people, and they told me alot of things about the unit. Essentially the secrets of staying out of trouble. And also the people to avoid and if evasive tatics is not possible, how to get out fast.
There was 1 guy who seemed quite nice on first impressions but i had a nagging thought at the back of my mind that he's up to no good when i observed his actions. Coincindentally, he was one of the guys they warned about. You know, backstabbers.
There's quite a few of them actually.
Why can't the world be rid of such behaviour, like in schools? Granted these sort of stuff also happen in schools, but the severity and danger levels weren't as high as it is now, or in the working world. Its just sad.
Till the end of time
So it began
Wishing...; 10/13/2005 10:35:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Heh, I do the wierdiest of things sometimes.
For one, today's the last day of my course. They booked chevrons for 30 bucks per person as a sort of final get together before we head off to our individual units. God knows when we'll be able to see each other again. Chances are that we won't. Not in the near future anyway.
I gave it a pass. Not that its surprising giving the title of this post huh? I just don't felt like going. The programme is something like, KTV --> dinner --> some skit --> tokens presentation --> disco. I figured that it wouldn't garner much interest in me. I never had taken any liking to discos or the like. The only push factor here is that it'll be my last chance to interact with my course mates and i'll feel bad if i actually missed it. Apparently it isn't a very great force. NUS food is more attractive to me.
Not that my abscence will be felt anyway.
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Later in the night, i had the sudden urge to take a stroll at the park, where i ultimately lied down on a bench and stared at the night sky for quite a long time. I kind of missed the days when i was riding fund's bike, when i would stop by regularly and just enjoy the breeze.
As usual my mind wandered off quickly and i thought about all sorts of things that came to my mind. My only desire then was to have someone beside me. Not necessarily my significant other, just someone who could silently accompany me and enjoy the serenity of the lonely night. I guess knowing that someone will be there for you really helps a lot.
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As a side now, i'm super motivated to pick up jap right now after seeing one of sy's friends studying jap. heh...i guess i'll have a lot of time to do just that. Gambatte ne~
Quote of the day :It take a lot more brawn to beat brain than brain brawn
Wierd me
Wishing...; 10/12/2005 11:48:00 PM
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Ok, i know i'm slow in the news as i seldom read the papers or watch news on television. I guess most of you already know about the incident whereby 2 bloggers got jailed and a couple more were suspended from school due to their comments they post on their blogs.
Well its upon each individual's responsibilty to not churn out 'harmful' stuff, which is pretty subjective and based on individual's perception. However, it is after all, still the poster's thoughts. Its kind of unfair to punish people just for some irresponsible posts,if it even can be qualified as such. Ah the power of words huh?
All i can say is, you can freeze our text, tape our mouths, monitor our blogs, whatever. But you can never stop what other people think. Do take this in a positive sense and with a grain of salt though.
Damn, next time i'll have to think twice before typing my anti-ns or anti-whatever rants. Maybe some people just can't accept the fact... Saddening...
Regulated privacy..ironic
Wishing...; 10/12/2005 12:25:00 AM
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Monday, October 10, 2005
Last friday night, the usual AR group met up for dinner at JP. Like before, TTH and bernard were late, especially bernard. Gim and i were on time (like always =p), and we started bitching at each other the moment we met up, like the good ol times.
For those thinking of trying out Bento box at JP, squash that thought and throw it into the deepest recesses of you mind and never dig it out. Just in case you do, don't order anything with rice. They don't serve sushi rice but PLAIN rice. PLAIN RICE!!! Can you imagine it? Thats unforgivable, especially for a 11 bucks bento set. We never tried the udons or ramens or what not so, no comments there.
Ever realised that the moments and lives we presently live in always suck? There's always room for improvement, thats true, but we spend so much of our time complaining that we never truely fully lived the present. For those who rant all the time away anyway. People like me.
The four of us had an unanimous agreement that life now DOES suck, the 3 guys being NS and gim being mistreated at work. At probably the same time one or two years ago, we would be saying JJC, mugging, the teachers etc. all suck and in two years time, we would probably be saying something else sucks. If we still meet up after 2 years that is.
Not that i'll be saying "NS isn't that bad after all". It'll never happen as long as i possess sanity. If i were to plot a suck graph on periods of my life, NS would definitely be at the pinnacle of a maximum curve, with steep drops down on either side. Thats just how bad i think it is!
Come to think of it, JC life doesn't suck as much after all. I miss it a lot, treasure your time there (=.
And for those who're going to take your As, all the best. Feel free to drop me a call if you need help in chemistry or biology. I won't promise anything though, i'm out of touch with it for almost a year, but i do promise that i'll try my best (=.
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Gamers nowadays, they're really getting more and more childish and unbelievable. Or is it that i'm getting older and more mature in my thoughts?
Just a while ago i played a dota game with a couple of....retards? Its really pissifying to play with kids, or those with their mentality. Its a 3v2 (i'm on the 2 side, someone left, which is the start of a very ugly chain of events). Starting calling me names when they killed my hero by teaming up. They SEEM to be winning, and when the tables turned against them, 1 quit, while another said "not happy settle outside la".
Its just sad. Its really an uphill task to argue with people who doesn't speak with reason in his mind.
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I think this is kinda wrong...but then again...it might be right after all.
Dominant Personality: Disappointment
Good Traits: You know what rejection feels
like, and are truthful with people.
Bad Traits: You're very pessimistic. It
seems like everything's gone wrong with your
life, so you've given up.
People see you as: Depressed, lonely, and
unenthusiastic. People walk right by you and
occassionally walk all over you. You let
yourself get pushed around and always blame
yourself.
You're Most Like: Regret. You think that
everything is going to turn out all wrong. You
have to take matters into your own hands.
Unlike regret, you don't constantly dwell on
the past, but dread the future.
You Need More: Calm. Don't associate with
promise-breakers, and a large group of people.
Seek out people who understand where you're
coming from.
What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results)
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Suck
Wishing...; 10/10/2005 11:53:00 PM
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
Changed the blog layout. The pic is pretty girlish, but i like that pic anyway. Can't find any better pic to put up, so this will do. It has to =p
Went ice-skating with funkia n his friends at JE today. Its been long since i skated, my last being before i enlisted into NS. Thats like, 6 months? Had to repick everything up again because i've lost touch with it, not that i have much to lose to begin with. It was really fun. Must make it a regular, if not weekly affair.
For those who remembered. Thanks. You guys really made my day. It really did pleasantly surprise me when someone whom i had not contacted for a long time suddenly messaged me. Made me believe again.
Good luck and all the best to all taking the As soon, and hope you get good results Ms Wabbit.
There's never a hero who hasn't does any wrong.
The Special day
Wishing...; 10/09/2005 11:17:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Didn't post much these few days. Its not that i don't have anything to write, but just that it isn't suitable for the wider audience.
Maybe i should keep real quiet for some time and see what happens. That should keep me in check.
Those cold blue eyes
Silence is golden
Wishing...; 10/05/2005 12:08:00 AM
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