Sunday, February 26, 2006
"When you keep your problems to yourself, and force yourself to smile, the person that its hardest on is you"
Wishing...; 2/26/2006 04:20:00 AM
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
Everybody seems obsessed with johari this few days so i decided to create one for myself for the heck of it. Here's the link to it.
I'm very sleepy right now but i'm trying my very best not to sleep. I've been sleeping way too much for my liking these few days. Don't like to waste my precious time outside camp. Its a sin :P.
I think i'm really a community being, based on the fact that i get so bored easily alone and that i always want to go out with friends, but i'm so darn picky..sigh
Zzz
Wishing...; 2/23/2006 11:58:00 PM
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A long and complicated twist and chain of events led to this post. Nonsensical to most, therefore I ask for your forgiveness for those reading but weren't involved and don't be too quick to judge.
Not like a lot of ppl will be reading anyway...
Food for thoughts :)
Communication is the key, and communication is what you two, or all of us in the group lacked. Which, not surprisingly, caused the crack in the friendships? IMO, if there's a problem, there's no harm in sharing it. Its like a huge brick wall that shouldn't be there in the first place. What are friends for anyway?
I know some of you think that your problems are yours alone, and if possible, don't want to drag people who are totally unrelated into it. Well, that’s mature and sweet of you to think that way, but that's pretty naive IMO.
I’ll always remember this line from my sec school English teacher. ” Its your right to swing your arm as much as you like, but once it hits someone, You are infringing on other’s rights.”
What I wanted to say is, eventually people will get dragged in, no matter what, someway or another. Might as well.
I always have a stand to try not keep anything from anyone. If ppl at least bother to ask, I'll answer. At least as much as i could. Not like I’m gonna laugh and start spewing random insults at your problems. I believe I’m sensible enough to know when the right time to joke is. Heh :P
What i don't really see fit is, yes you have a problem. BUT, you can't expect ppl to understand you and give way IF you don't explain what’s wrong blahblah.. Yes, expectations again.
I know of people who just keep quiet and try to give in and keep it all to themselves, and when things start going wrong, others wonder just what the hell went wrong BECAUSE all the way, their impression was, YOU like it, that’s why you came. You all should know who I’m talking about. You get my point, but that’s beside the point.
People will be there to offer a hand. But if you shun that hand, coldly even, what would they think? If you’re that headstrong, then don’t cry over it when you look again, but see that hand gone.
Sometimes, I swear, all that needs to be done is for ppl to open their golden mouths. All might not be as bad as YOU ARE SPECULATING. So instead of speculating about what they MIGHT be thinking, just go and talk it out! For goodness sake! Think so much in your head but in the end its all just your opinions which might not even be true. Then get all upset over it.Zzz
Being a friend, all I can do is to be understanding, but that’s also something that you can do too. Or am I wrong?
Dear Friends
Wishing...; 2/23/2006 12:13:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Haha..i'm now staring at the screen blankly, with lots of thoughts in my mind but not sure exactly how i want to put it down. I'm like, just staring and leaving my mind to wander on its on like this for the last 30 mins or so, occassionally finding it's back to reply the msn chat windows.
I'm mostly just enjoying the music though. And i want to take more pictures. Brings out the happier moments in life, forever capture it, and let those awful ones disappear into oblivion :).
Idling...
Wishing...; 2/22/2006 12:09:00 AM
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Haha, just finished watching Ice dancing - Free Dance segment of Torino 2005. Stayed up to watch part of it and their dances are so elegant and beautiful!!! Its worth the sleep (or lack of) to watch the event. I've always loved figure skating anyway, the dances are always worth the time :)
Anyway, last sat I was at AC fun-o-rama! I personally think its more interesting than the one 2 years ago... =x Anyway, some pics!
Some Hagen dazz ice cream which was frozen ROCK solid. Inedible for the first few min or so.
Then we walked round n round n round n round the school until we finally stopped for some SHAKER FRIES!!
There were only curry and milo flavours, and thats what we decided to get! TS was like so grossed out by the idea of our combination but we decided to get it anyway. xD
Before
After!!
Our very own princess endorsing the end product!
Ok, you can't see the fries so here's a CLOSE UP. *crosses fingers and prays karen doesn't kill me*. The girl behind was probably shocked into a state of denial by the rackus we're making at that point in time :P
The rest are just random pics of the funfair because i started taking them only like...half an hour before i wanted to leave :P
Some rubbish bin which i thought was funny
There's an awful lot of chocolate fountains there. Three i counted. Not a bad thing though.
And last of all, a picture of a pretty lame game where you use a watergun to zua every toy (i.e toy soldiers, animals, some pretty big cheetahs and a giant king kong) off the model plains and mountain. Or you can use nuclear bombs (some rounded stuff) and throw it at the toys :P
Enlarged picture of King Kong with its butt so cosily nested at the top that i don't think ANYTHING can topple it.
The rest of the stuff...i can't really remember. After all its already around 2-3 days after :P
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As for Sunday, went to watch pink panther with the ass-niners. Left only a couple though cause some got other commitments and some pangseh!! Anyways the show was VERY funny albeit lame. Not much of a story though, just a show for laughs :P.
After that went to shop around orchard. Its been a long time since we shopped around orchard. Not many pics cause we forgot to took and the only one's on the omu rice i ate at taka food court :).
Very ex but very nice. Chopsticks featured courtesy of SOMEONE (i forgot who) trying to kapo my food xD
Anyway read from someone elses blog that when they go out, 'we were saying how we hadnt laughed that hard in ages.' Its the same for us isn't it? :)
So much to catch up on, so many jokes to share around. So little time. It was always fun going out with the ass-niners, always full of laughter and somehow we'll forget the troubles at hand :).
I'll update next time, got to book into army.
Figure skating is niceeeeeeee
Wishing...; 2/21/2006 05:57:00 AM
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee weekends are hereeeeeeeeeeeee~! Lets hope this wkend doesn't end up like last week. Even IFFFFFFFFFFFFF by any remote chance it does, i have an anime which i'm really dyyyinngg to finsh watching.
Presenting Air TV!
I'm not a very good reviewer or summariser but Air is a very meaningful and touching type of anime about the dreams of the characters, children being pure and innoncent and what really small actions can mean to others. I haven't finish watching it yet anyway and i'm like at the middle of the series which is the most pivoting and mysterious and... Well i'll just finish watching it soon.
*hums*
Weekends
Wishing...; 2/18/2006 01:59:00 AM
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Thursday, February 16, 2006
Well i was randomly surfing blogs today, i happen to come across this pic which i could really relate to.
Its from someone i don't know so i'm wondering how should i credit that person.. Anyway thats besides the point.
Isn't that sooooo true? At least it is for me, one of the reasons why i locked up the blog :P. Guess everyone just wants to be cared for and this wall method is one of many to find out who at least gives a damn about me. To date, i hadn't not given my password to anyone who had asked. Heh..
I don't want to grow up. Things that should be important become insignificant while those that should be insignificant become important.
Walls
Wishing...; 2/16/2006 12:28:00 AM
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Happy Valentine's Day to all my friends out there! Well, I don't have a date, but alas, its not just a day for loveyy couples, its also a day for friends to get together! And so out i went with a group of dateless friends. Alicia begs to differ though saying she rejected 5 dates to go out with us :p
It was fun and we talked a lot of crap and laughed and made a fool out of ourselves just like our good ol' jc days. I think the sakae restauraunt we went to would have been MUCH MUCH MORE quiet without us. I think all the couples must be cursing us or something cause we were really noisy :P.
Anyway this was our last order...we ordered too much! Blame glendon for saying he want everything and Mingyue for making everything double with her itchy fingers! We did get around it though by putting some of them into plastic bags and taperware..hahaha opps :P
Poor mingyue chomping up food like a monster. RAWR!! Well, she's the one who wanted the ebi handrolls and was also responsible for doubling a lot of items... HAHA AND SHE TIO 2/3 of the numbers in zhong ji mi ma!! :P
Alicia laughing hard at some joke that i forgot...
Happy Valentine's day to all :)
After the buffet lunch/dinner we practically just walked around westmall and stoned at macs for a while. Met and talked with lilin for a while after everyone left at clementi then went home. Nothing much :P
Oh and i love my ipod mini!!! NOW I CAN HAVE MUSIC ON THE GOOO!!! YAY!!! I don't like itunes though. So mafan unlike my previous creative nomad where i just need to copy the files over. Took me more than 2 hours to finally figure out how it works and to set up the playlists. But oh well, as long as it plays my favourite musics =).
Valentine's Day
Wishing...; 2/14/2006 11:49:00 PM
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Monday, February 13, 2006
This weekend has got to be the longest wkend EVER although technically they're all the same. I napped like many many times during sat and sun and the days just doesn't seem to pass. Time is literally CcccccccrRaaawwLlliiiinnnNngggggggggg... In normal weekends i don't even nap haha..
Took my time to catch up with my anime, managed to watch all 16 episodes of blood+, 12 episodes of noein, latest naruto and bleach..and the rest of the time spacing out listening to mp3 or sleeping. Yes..outing was postponed to next wk cause most of the ppl are bz/sick/mia, which explains why i have so much time in my hands this wkend.
Sigh. Nothing but trouble this weekend. Oh well, next week will get better, since i'm getting my IPOD MINI!!!! Music is soooo therapeutic, the best thing that can ever be given to me when i'm down.
Hope everyone else gets better too. You know who i'm talking about =)
Draggy
Wishing...; 2/13/2006 12:30:00 AM
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Sunday, February 12, 2006
I was really bored so i went onto the net and search for some interesting and beautiful pics...randomly...
tornadoes
heart in the sky
rainbow
meteor shower
Bored
Wishing...; 2/12/2006 01:42:00 AM
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Friday, February 10, 2006
Yayyyyyyyy, one more day to the weekendsssssssss. Long time since i last saw the s-niners haahaha..... Can't wait for saturday :).
Weekendsssssssssss
Wishing...; 2/10/2006 12:49:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Have a fun trip gim, keep in contact ya? And thanks for the card :)
Byee
Wishing...; 2/08/2006 11:37:00 PM
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
I remember people used to asked me, if i were to rank my friends, my family and my love according to which is most important to me, I would definitely rank my friends as first, then its usually a tie between my family and my love. Thats like, a year or two ago.
Now, if people were to ask me that question again, i wouldn't be so sure anymore. I don't think i've changed much. Karen offered me an interesting answer. "Its because all your good friends are so disappointing right?" I couldn't help but agree at that time in point. Its not the first time i've experienced such feelings.
Just this year alone (and it had barely started), I had seen quite a number of disputes between friends. Disputes which i think, shouldn't even have happened in the first place if you people had been more understanding and give and take. I'm not saying like i'm very understanding or what not but from an outsider's point of view, its always clearer.
Then there are things like, friends who didn't even turn up for outings without even telling anyone anything. What's worse, i inquired, to get silence and apologies as my only response. I don't think its very unreasonable for me to at least demand an explanation. And it happened from people who'd I'd least expect it from. Maybe i just expect too much but it still hurts when people can't do what for me what to me is like...the least?
Then there's Gim. She only wanted to meet up with us before she flies off to NZ for her studies. Probably won't see her for a v. long time after but i guess people are more concerned about other things than the fact that they might not see her for a v. long time after. Its been a long time since we last met too. Luckily me n ps got to catch up with her abit today. Have a great trip gim, and i really do hope u get into vet science =). Will miss you...
Maybe among these are the reasons why i'm so in love with anime and rpg and fantasy stories. Its only in these places where you can find the perfect friendship. Why? Because its too good to be true and only exists in our imagination. Where in real life can you find a friend who would be willing to die for you? Who would believe in you and not doubt you no matter what? Even a person like me wouldn't dare to say such words.
I seriously wonder how fragile our relationships with people are. People can fall out over anything and everything. Even the bestest of friends.
Ever since i entered NS, i realised that i missed my home more than I'd care to admit. I'd want to sleep at home, eat at home, bath at home, what the hell even shitting at home sounds more appealing to me than shitting in the damn camp. It's like home will always be there for me. Albeit there's an irritating granny at times..still..They say you don't cherish what you have until you lost it, not that i've lost my home or anything...
My dreams still prevails though. come to think of it, i've been meeting more and more people who, like me, endures on just by their dreams. Its such a powerful thing to hope. I just refuse to believe that i can't find my dreams.
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Currently i'm mesmerised by this song :
http://www.animelyrics.com/game/air/
(Game) Air: Tori no Uta (Song of the Bird)
Opening Song
kieru hikoukigumo bokutachi wa miokutta
mabushikute nigeta itsudatte yowakute
ano hi kara kawarazu
itsumademo kawarazu ni irarenakatta koto
kuyashikute yubi wo hanasu
(*)We watched the plane depart, its vapor trial fading behind.
I ran away because it was dazzling. I was always weak
and the fact that I was forever changing ever since that day
left me frustrated and I removed my finger.
ano tori wa mada umaku tobenai kedo
itsuka wa kaze wo kitte shiru
todokanai basho ga mada tooku ni aru
negai dake himete mitsumeteru
That bird can't fly well yet,
but it will know some day when it feels the wind,
that there is a place it can't reach off in the distance.
It is just looking at it having a wish inside now.
kodomotachi wa natsu no senro aruku
fuku kaze ni suashi wo sarashite
tooku ni wa osanakatta hibi wo
ryoute ni wa tobidatsu kibou wo
The children walk on the railway in summer,
exposing their bare feet to the blowing wind,
So far away are my childhood days,
In my hands are wishes about to fly.
kieru hikoukigumo oikakete oikakete
kono oka wo koeta ano hi kara kawarazu itsumademo
massugu ni bokutachi wa aru youni
watatsumi no youna tsuyosa wo mamoreru yo kitto
We watched the plane depart, we kept chasing and chasing after it.
Since that day when we crossed over this hill, in order to make us straight, we will have always kept the strength like the god of the sea, certainly.
ano sora wo mawaru fuusha no hanetachi wa
itsumademo onaji yume miru
todokanai basho wo zutto mitsumeteru
negai wo himeta tori no yume wo
The blades of the wind mill going round in the sky,
have the same dream forever.
A dream of a bird looking at the place it can't reach and having a wish inside.
furikaeru yaketa senro oou
nyuudougumo katachi wo kaetemo
bokura wa oboete ite douka
kisetsu ga nokoshita kinou wo
Looking back, it is the thunder cloud covering the burned railway.
Even if it change shape,
may we always remember them- the yesterdays left behind from that season
kieru hikoukigumo oikakete oikakete
hayasugiru aizu futari waraidashiteru itsumademo
massugu ni manazashi wa aru youni
ase ga nijindemo te wo hanasanai yo zutto
We watched the plane depart, we kept chasing and chasing after it.
It was an early sign. We two began to smile. In order to look at you straight, I won't release your hand even if I sweat, forever.
kieru hikoukigumo bokutachi wa miokutta
mabushikute nigeta itsudatte yowakute
ano hi kara kawarazu
itsumademo kawarazu ni irarenakatta koto
kuyashikute yubi wo hanasu
(*) repeat
Transliterated by Youko
Translated by masahiko.
Friends...Family...
Wishing...; 2/05/2006 11:10:00 PM
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Saturday, February 04, 2006
'Ever since getting the owl, I've taken special care to notice the kids who haven't given any reason to be noticed at all. Just because they don't stand out, that doesn't mean that they don't want to be acknowledged as well. It doesn't have to be much - looking over the quiet girl in the back's English assignment, telling her she did a good job...asking a shy boy how his soccer club practices are going...or even just remembering a student's name. Something to show them that at least one person gives a damn that they exist.' I copied this chunk of text from Az's editorials here from "The Moeko Principle".
Isn't that true? I'd admit i'm a sucker for that too.
Wishing...; 2/04/2006 01:17:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Trip to clement's house turned out really fine dispite several hiccups here and there. Was doubting initially if the mood would still be there or not because people were just suddenly dropping out but luckily, the rest still had our fair share of fun and laughter.
The steamboat was especially nice!! The food was really great and his parents went to quite some trouble to help us buy the food. If you're reading this, thanks a lot clement! :)
And clement's mum is not as strict and fierce as I thought her to be. (Yea, we had dinner together because a few didn't come) Very nice, friendly and hospitable people.
Although i still can't get over the fact of being pangsehed...for one its understandable, but for the other...didn't even bother to explain..well at least we got to know that he's not coming...at the last min....
Steamboat
Wishing...; 2/01/2006 12:14:00 AM
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