Thursday, September 29, 2005
Copied from this webbie:
http://omega.med.yale.edu/~pcy5/japanese/owl.html
If you've read some of the other editorials on this site, you may know that I used to be a nice guy. I went out of my way to make people happy. That alone was enough for me, I didn't expect reciprocation. But, when I went through rough times, it was easy to see that those I did so much for were nowhere to be found. It hurt, a lot. Forced me to change who I was. No longer did I do things for people's happiness - I didn't do things for people at all. If I did, there was always the "What do I get out of it?" angle. And at times, I wasn't even remotely nice to the general population.
The anger faded eventually and I was able to become less of a jerk, but I still didn't do things for others unless they'd established themselves as a friend, and I saw some possible benefit for myself in it. But then my girlfriend came along, and slowly I opened up to her as I loved her. I went out of my way, pretty much all the time, for her (sacrificing a lot of time, money, among other things). She rarely if ever reciprocated, and it did bother me, but I held my ground and hoped one day she'd change and be more giving.
Why i copied this here you may ask, because i feel a connection.
Plagiarism
Wishing...; 9/29/2005 12:14:00 AM
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Monday, September 26, 2005
How's this? :D
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Just another quiz
Wishing...; 9/26/2005 08:04:00 PM
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The Academically Hardcore Test. Well, just a lame test to see what kind of student you are. Found it somewhere haha.
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=1431152849222801695
Softcore
You scored 24 gunnerness!
You're a laid back student. This doesn't mean that you don't care about school, but you don't let yourself become consumed with a test or assignment, and a bad test score won't get you down. You wonder if those who work harder are actually happy with their lives or are just trying to please someone else in their lives. There are better ways to spend your time than stressing out over school. It's important to have a life outside of class. After all, that's where the real education is to be had.
bored
Wishing...; 9/26/2005 07:40:00 PM
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http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm
You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.
You 'need to be needed'. As an idealist you are intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to you. If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence.
You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.
For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease.
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Haha, I'll let you guys decide on the truthfulness of this self-test. The results are pretty interesting though.
Ah, i miss the days when i was mugging during jc times. Went to the library to borrow some jap self study guides with my class's very own tomoya fanatic...And the usual thing happened. The library was jam packed with students busy preparing for their exams as always. Some of them even gave me a wierd look when i walked passed them, like i'm a disturbance or something. I admit that my headphones were very loud though. :D
Went shopping around for a while at IMM and JE after that. That stupid popular at JE was so big and it didn't have the comic that i wanted to buy. And i especially made that exception! Rae was enjoying herself gloating at my 'spendthriftness'. Luckily i had no cash with me, or else i would have bought a lot more things from IMM. Enjoy yourself! It will not last!!!
And jap canned drinks are so skinny. Haha~ :x
Just another post...just another self-test...just
Wishing...; 9/26/2005 12:37:00 AM
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
Last week effectively meant the last of my stay out days. I was informed of my unit posing a few days a go. It was a heart-thumping moment when my name was called. 41 Singapore Armour Regiment. Like how much more jinxed can i get! I heard that armour is one of the most xiong units around not to mention that I have no friends going there too, lonely all by myself. Like that's not enough, its also freaking far from my house. All those people who have better pes status get to slack in 'better' camps. I think i can babble on endlessly... boo~
I really hate SAF. A lot of things are done just for show. Like my stay in ALTI under the guise of 'on the job training'. OJT my arse. The ideal picture for it is supposed to be practical work for us (shall not bore you with the details) but it turned out in the end that all of us sat down and listen to instructors tell us what is supposed to be done. Sad fact of life. Oh i'm so enlightened by their heavenly preachings. So much so that I'm building castles in the air before they even know it. And the stupid commander keep on yakking about how important it is that we get the ITE cert from the OJT.
No offense to any ITE people though, I just don't like the way things are done. Its just not right. Just like now, they say, according to procedures, we must do this do that yadayada, but in the end they would not be adhered to to save trouble. They want us to spearhead the change but the people at the top (not the very top) are resistant to it. Like what the hell are we supposed to do?
Hey, its supposed to be done like this, sir. And we get to sign something.
On another note, a stay in might actually do me some good. I've just started learning jap on my own (hopefully i can last it through) and the stay in would hopefully loosen up my cash strapped pockets (FYI, i only have 90 bucks left in my bank until my next pay, which is like in 3 weeks time. Donations to save the Wei Bin Poverty fund anyone?). And i get to train myself up. However, however good it may sound, I would never exchange anything for my freedom. Nothing beats being able to do what you want at your whims and fancy. In addition, you absolutely will not get punished for something that you didn't do wrong. Well, not likely anyway.
Ok, enough ranting. Onto another topic. I've watched Final Fantasy VII : Advent Children last week. The effects and animation were awesome! Characters looked life-like. Tifa was especially pretty while Yuffie was very cute. Eye candy for the guys. Two thumbs up too to the fighting scenes and the music that came along with it. Made me fall in love with J-E-N-O-V-A again [the music, not the goddess :p]
If only the show had more story in it, it would be perfect. Then again, it might be because of high expectations for the label. I shall not comment too much on the story element as i had not played the game before and maybe those who did might be able to connect more to it. Nonetheless, its still an awesome movie *Drools at the superb fighting sequences*
For those who want a good laugh, I'd absolutely recommend The Longest Yard. Standard story of prisoners vs guards in a football match with sabotage all around. In a really humourous manner and a cliche ending (=
I'll continue tomorrow night. Dead beat now.
Pissed...ranted...done
Wishing...; 9/24/2005 12:52:00 AM
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Monday, September 19, 2005
Just a pic that i found very interesting
How true. I distinctively remember a comment made by a certain someone that NS only teach people 4 simples things. Smoke, drink, spew vulgarities and smoke. Of course, being the anti NS guy i am, i'm confident to say that i'll resist such...negative behaviour.
Didn't post for quite some time because of the a field exercise, which, as usual, is pretty useless in my opinion. Maybe another thing people can add to the above pic is wayang. Well, at the very least, a captain said something which i think is quite true (for once). He said, the only constant in this world is changes. Go screw your brain around and think about it. Its really quite fool-proof.
I can be stubborn at times, but don't judge me by your values.
For now, a sort of quiz...do try it out and send to me your answers too!!! Will be looking forward to it. (=
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. My name (duh)
2. Hui
3. oi...wei...you know?
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Xjap
2. Elfie
3. Gale Glory
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My fingers (and the nails to go along..long enough to claw at you *roar*)
2. hair? uh-huh...don't think of the wrong places..no armpit hair pls
3. eyes...no specs attached (=
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My smile i guess, i'm not photogenic
2. small eyes (refer to point 1)
3. I'm kinda round...
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Heights
2. Hrm...hrm...
3. Help me fill in the blank please..
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. mp3 player (must have!!!)
2. a notebook of sorts to pen down random thoughts
3. Food!! and sleep! Friends counted?
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. shorts
2. shirt...
3. what else more can i wear? jacket when i'm about to go to sleep?
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Xjapan
2. Two-mix
3. -blank-
I don't really have favourite bands or artists anyway...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Record of lodoss war - Sakasama no niji
2. Nami Tamaki - Reason (Gundam seed Destiny)
3. See-Saw - Kimi wa boku ni niteiru
Note : Its just 3 random songs that i immediately thought of...i have a lot of favourite songs (=
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Never really thought about it....
1. Love...like duh?
2. Happy times together
3. To be able to understand each other without the need for words? haha..
TRUTH OR LIE?:
1. I'm still single
2. I failed my 'A' maths during 'O' levels
3. I love to eat everything!!!.
4. I'm stronger with my right hand but i'm left-handed.
5. Chinese songs rocks~
Well...which are the truths and the lies? For you to guess (=
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Hair (especially long ones!! long hair!!)
2. Cuteness..school girl type lol
3. Personality, i tend to go for the inside (=
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Computer games
2. Hanging out :)
3. Sleep (during lectures and lessons. Can't help it they're too boring for me)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Work. (For those who have tuition lobangs, please give me a friendly call)
2. Learn Jap by myself
3. Improve myself
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Teacher
2. -fill in the blank-
3. -fill in another blank-
I don't usually think of my future...i never really did think much on that. I live in the present and in my dreams (=.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Alaska----AURORA BOREALIS!!!! (=
2. New Zealand
3. just a nice and quiet spot will do
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
I shall leave this part blank...
1.
2.
3.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. big ego?
2. play all sorts of computer games?
3. short hair!!! can't think of a better answer hahah
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. mood swings
2. long nails
3. what do you think?
THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Tomoy....wait a sec...why the hell would i have a crush on MALE CELEBS!! *whips out parang* and chops off 2 and 3!!*
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
(its sabo time)
1. kaobi!!
2. ka*
3. alicia~~~
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Thats it for now. Ja ne~
A little of everything...
Wishing...; 9/19/2005 11:57:00 PM
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Haha, i think i inherited my sleeping pattern from jc days into NS man. One day i'll seriously get into a whole shitload of trouble. I'm already starting to get marked by my instructors for ALWAYS perpetually sleeping in lessons.
Its just like a bad habit kicking in its effect all the time. The moment i sit down in a classroom or lecture theatre, i'll just pomp! Asleep right beside you. There are others that always build castles too, but i'm one of the best castle puffers out there in my class.
For the last few booking ins, i've been caught sleeping all the time. (Note : most of the time its by the same instructor) To make things worse, during the grouping today, my name is the FIRST to be mentioned, which comfirmed my suspicions that i will be marked and aimed at for the coming field exercise which begins...today.
Its like no matter how hard i try, i just can't force myself to stay awake. I've tried every single SANE available means of staying awake, like eating sweets, pinching and poking myself, breathing deeper (some say it works, it works initially for me) etc. , but to no avail. I can fall asleep and wake up later with half eaten sweets in my mouth, the pain's not working either. Imagine that! haha!
So, a warning to those out there who likes to sleep a lot during jc lectures and tutorials. Don't, unless you plan to be a sleeper like me, which i like a lot, and intend to carry over yet into my uni days =D.
Although i sleep in lectures and tutorials a lot during my jc days, i also respect my chem, bio and maths teachers a lot. Someone told me before that sleeping in front of a person's lesson means u totally have no respect for that person. Guess it differs for me. (=
As a sidenote, i don't feel lethargic the moment i step out of my camp gates, no matter how tired and sleepy i was when i was inside. Hah...
Sleep patterns
Wishing...; 9/13/2005 12:19:00 AM
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Sunday, September 11, 2005
Just the opening from the sequel of my favourite anime (=
Romaji Lyrics
yami no yozora ga futari wakatsu no wa
yobiau kokoro hadaka ni suru tame
kazari nugisute subete nakusu toki
nanika ga mieru
kaze yo watashi wa tachimukau
yukou kurushimi no umi e to
kizuna kono mune ni kizande
kudakeru nami wa hatenaku tomo
nani wo motomete daremo arasou no?
nagashita chishio hana wo sakaseru no?
toutoki ashita kono te ni suru made
deaeru hi made
kaze yo watashi wa tachimukau
yukou kagayaki wo mezashite
inori kono mune ni dakishime
samayou yami no you na mirai
kaze yo watashi wa osorenai
ai koso mitsukedashita kiseki yo
kimi wo shinjite'ru yorokobi
arashi wa ai ni kizuku tame ni fuite'ru
English translation
The dark night sky separates us
to lay bare our hearts as they call out to each other.
Cast off your useless trappings. Some things can only be seen
when you've lost everything.
Oh wind, I will stand and face you!
I will go to the sea of anguish,
though bonds cut my chest,
and the crushing waves are endless.
What does everyone seek by fighting?
Does spilled blood cause flowers to bloom?
Until the precious tomorrow is in my hands...
Until the day we meet...
Oh wind, I will stand and face you!
I will go and head for the brilliance.
Embracing prayer to my heart,
I wander the seemingly dark future.
Oh wind, I am not afraid!
Love is the miracle I have found!
It's my joy to believe in you.
The storm blows so that we might realize [our] love.
Record of Lodoss War : Chronicles of the Heroic Knight
Wishing...; 9/11/2005 02:27:00 AM
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
Just wondering out loud, since i'm that bored. Why do some people love blogging?
1. They've got nothing to do (I bet thats a convenient answer).
2. They just want others to know what they are thinking because its harder for them to communicate in real life.
3. Its trendy, or the so called 'in' thing.
4. Just trying it out.
5. They'r blogging because all their other friends are. (team bloggers? :D)
6. They're lonely and always online.
7. Introvets/loners typing
8. Lazy to write.
OR!!!!
9. They've really got nothing better to do, like me! (=
Bored
Wishing...; 9/08/2005 04:57:00 PM
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Monday, September 05, 2005
Fated I am to be...
Destined I am to combat Fate...
Which would be more pointless, to give in to fate, or to continue against it?
Destiny...Fate...
Wishing...; 9/05/2005 11:16:00 PM
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thinking of long days past
A longing glance i gave
to my friends that had come and passed
Laugthers we once had shared
As we were all together once.
Overflowing wishes beat in my heart so intensely
Even the boundless azure hint savagery
Dark clouds looming dangerously
Over the clear blue sky.
Enrooted into the neverchanging lands
Never embracing changes that fate divines
For what good had it come to bring
Onto this very land that I had prayed
Wishful dreams I had
Fate changing all that I get
Still I look forward always
Never Afraid
Trust and wishes overflowing my doubtless heart
That i believe strongly no matter what
Never be ashamed of an honest tear...
Winds of change...
Wishing...; 9/05/2005 12:28:00 AM
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Friday, September 02, 2005
Sometimes i'm just a little bothered. I don't know if i'm the only one who feels that way, but am i the only one who feels annoyed when some people ask questions when the class is about to get dismissed? Or when people ask questions which I already know?
Not like its a bad thing, but some people just do not know when to open their golden mouth. They refuse every opportunity to ask but the worst ones. I appluad their overwhelming thirst for knowledge but a the same time, I am also deeply appalled by the questions these people can come up with.
Questions which, I think, only they themselves don't understand, which could be clarified personally after the instructors dismissed the class. And yet, and yet, they just like to choose to pop those magical questions mere seconds before dismissal, causing the whole class to suffer their ears and wait as the instructors clear THEIR doubts.
You can say that I am impatient, that others may also want to know the answers to the questions they are asking, that it is still early, why be in a rush, that what I know doesn't mean others also know, that I should be more patient BUT, but, the way I see it is that its just a perfect waste of precious time.
The way I see it, they can be much much more considerate and ask AFTER dismissal, which I think is a better use of time. I plan my time a lot and I just hate to see it being wasted like that. Whenever I know of the program for the day, I've already formulated a neat little plan in my head roughly as to what I'm going to do with the time I have left and i assure you that I'll definitely try to squeeze out as much time as I can and make the most out of it. Which is why i just hate it when they're wasted on redundant stuff.
Time is precious
Just a little bothered.
Wishing...; 9/02/2005 12:08:00 AM
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